kadyellebee

So I think my dad is really not happy with me for agreeing with my brother. He came in saying that it was too much work for one person to do his job, and it was awful stress to keep doing it without seeing a light at the end of the tunnel, ie., w/o dad saying that we would be hiring someone, or somehow, we’d be doing something to make it so it wasn’t so much on one person.

I feel the same way so much. I see no light at the end of the tunnel and there is too much for just me to do all of this stuff with the way I’m feeling. I’m basically here because I feel obligated to help out as much as I can. I came today, even though my head feels awful, and my body aches. I’m pushing myself as hard as I can for this business, but there’s not enough of me to even keep up with my daily tasks. I don’t like the feeling of fading away, and I worry that if I keep pushing myself so much and only living to work these 4 hours a day, I’ll make myself worse. I know that if I have what I think I do, there is no easy fix, and I’m prepared for that. :sigh:

So many thoughts on a explodey head.

Mom and dad are outside talking now, and its not a happy feeling to know that dad is so sad... I don’t mean to discourage him so much. I really don’t want to make him upset.