emotional ramblings
Last night, I went so quickly from one emotion to another that it makes my head spin to think about it.
I am so tired and confused.
E was tickeling me and making me laugh so hard that I was crying, and the next thing I knew, I was crying and sobbing all over the place.
I don’t know how to fix myself.
Crying makes me tired, so I fell alseep really fast.
Its Friday, which means tomorrow is Saturday and I can regather myself into a semblance of who I am.
Its not just work, either. I am so confused about what I’m doing and where I’m going and what I want to do. I’m pretty sure this isn’t the right job for me forever, and I know I want my license, but I feel imcapacited to do anything about it.
How can I learn to drive when I’m so tired? And why the hell is it taking me so long? I’ve had the car since early December, and I still don’t have my license? I am such a moron!
Whenever I find myself, I’ll be sure to let you all know. For today, a long Friday, I’ll try to hold on... just another 9 hours until E comes to take me away, home for a whole day, with no work, just him.
Comments
oh, when I read this today, I could so relate! My whole last night and this morning was like this. I felt like you were all tapped into my head!
I don’t have my licence, either, I get so so tired when I cry, and I’m just bumply-bobbly emotional. Anywhich way, here’s a big ol' hug from someone who definately understands. If you find yourself, I can’t wait to see where. Mebbe I’m there too! 
Posted by: anathea | May 4, 2001 12:28 PM
Honey, I’ve had a car for four years and I don’t have a license. You’re not a moron. Or if you are, you’re in good company. : )
Posted by: Rina | May 4, 2001 06:34 PM