{"id":18,"date":"2009-06-23T14:06:58","date_gmt":"2009-06-23T14:06:58","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/wp\/2009\/06\/23\/the_life_that_was_to_be\/"},"modified":"2009-06-23T14:06:58","modified_gmt":"2009-06-23T14:06:58","slug":"the_life_that_was_to_be","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/2009\/06\/the_life_that_was_to_be\/","title":{"rendered":"The life that was to be"},"content":{"rendered":"

I finally am acknowledging something that’s been in the back of my mind for a while: I’ve been mourning the life I had hoped to have. It’s easy to compare myself to those around me who I see as “successful”.  Things like a traditional job, having babies, being a good housewife.  And I’m not fitting into the plans I had for my life.<\/p>\n

I feel like I’ve failed in my health. How can having serious chronic illnesses be a failure? CFIDS and Fibromyalgia, along with dealing with health\/weight issues takes up a LOT of my time and energy.  This has made a serious impact on my plans for life.  Watching an episode of House (Season 2’s Acceptance<\/a>) reminded me of the 5 Stages of Grief<\/a>.  I think that I’ve been between Bargaining, Depression, and Acceptance multiple times over the last few years.<\/p>\n

Another thing which triggered me to think was a new episode of What Not to Wear (Amanda<\/a>)  She had a business which didn’t make it, and she was hiding in big because she felt like she failed.  The whole episode was really a transformation of her attitude to be positive and sexy again.  I can see that some of the things I’ve done lately have been done in an effort to recapture the SPARK in my life.<\/p>\n

What do I take from this?  It’s actually quite encouraging to me to write this down.  I am happy and hopeful.  So what’s next?  Stay tuned: I know I will do things I love.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

I finally am acknowledging something that’s been in the back of my mind for a while: I’ve been mourning the life I had hoped to have. It’s easy to compare myself to those around...<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[6],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-health"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/kadyellebee.com\/kdlb\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}