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HopefulReflections:
The journal site for Kristine Beeson of HopelessRomantics. A series of hopes and dreams.




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June 28, 2001 ~:~ 1:17PM
Its a never ending circle. There's always too much to do, and I'm so tired of doing it. I find myself fooling around just because I don't like what I'm doing, and I really don't want to do that! Then I feel like I'm being a bad working and it makes me feel even worse. *sigh*

I did decide to start on my drugs. [pill contemplation] [doctor appointment recap] If they can even help just a little bit, it might be worth it. But its not an instant fix. I'm still gonna be tired and listless for a while until my body gets used to the impact of the seratonin balancing fun.

Chats with Eric, Megan, and Lisa make me happy. Chats with mom and Leonard give me reasons to want to scream. I think its probably good to indentify that because i can avoid that which hurts me. Not that I can avoid completely, but by closing myself off, I can avoid pain somewhat.
- , Kristine

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June 28, 2001 ~:~ 8:00AM

Health notes:
062601: Increased anxiety, sidepains during most of day, dr. appt.
8:45pm-4:40am: 8hr sleep
062701: Woke up with headache and sore throat
Flustered and very tired all day
8:30pm-4:15am: 7.75hr sleep; interupted, woke many times between 12 and 4
062801: Tired, listless, dentist appt.

- , Kristine

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GuiltyPleasures:
Microwave popcorn. 13 cups of goodness per bag.
Stabbing Westwards' Haunting song. Its stuck in my head since E played it on our drive home
Tara Music. Gives me peace among the storm.
Painting. I could do this all day.
Animal Cookies. Quick, catch the one that escaped from the bag!



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